Here’s a new one. When i was receiving prayer for being sick i kept hearing the line “we were moving mountains long before we knew we could”
i thought, cool God is talking to me. (which he definitely was) But it kinda slipped out of my mind when the ladies prayig for me walked away. a little while later one woman came back out where i was to use the printer and i hear “we were moving mountains long before we knew we could… many nights we’ve prayed… there can be miracles..” it gradually faded as she left.
this happened twice more. It was so much louder when she would be by me and when she left it would fade off.
I can’t explain it other than her soul was simply singing out strong and steady to her love.

Today I was at working coughing horribly and feeling freezing. I was shaking when i coughed violently and shaking sitting still because of the cold.
God clearly said to me amidst my little “why Jesus” and  “fix me”: “Would you preach the gospel if you were dying”
I respond right away “yes, i would put pain aside and let every one know and would quit my job and school so i could reach more people!”

“my world is dying….”

Silence..
I pray God tells me what that conversation means for me to do..
I want to save his babies

have you ever been white water rafting? it’s pretty intense. really though, the worst part is the anticipation. The guides tell you how easily you could get hurt and the crazy danger of it all. Then you have to sit on this long bus ride as they give you all the safety guidelines and tell you what you will experience. Class 5 rapids, sharp rocks, etc. 

The past few months I have been asking God to show me my future. I mean I’ve been prophesied over and had words spoken to me all through my life that God had big plans, but i wanted God to start getting more specific- i wanted direction.

Backing up- right now i work a 40 hour week, have 16.5 credit hours at college and two of the classes are a 40 minute drive away, I am on a worship team, and go to another church that is an hour away. SO God has told me to live in the moment, totally dependant on him for what comes next. He said, don’t look forward 5 years, or a year, a month, a week, or even a day. Focus on directly right now. I learned very quickly I have no choice but to do this. after all my load is God-sized and was directed by him.

Well this Sunday the love of my life and i listened to God and started a college ministry. Three girls showed up and God was there the whole time. It was seriously so perfect and we know it was just the beginning. After the group my love’s best friend pulled on things. “Melody, when you pray you bring the presence of God…Stop fearing man…Speak out… Lead” and so on. Well if that wasn’t enough, after he went home my love started saying more. “you are the most spiritually sensitive person i know.. it’s time to stand up..stop letting other walk on you..” and theeen God started opening my spiritual eyes to what he has in store for me.

uhm..needless to say, i slowly began panicking. I didn’t even catch that’s what it was. as far as i knew i was focusing on the now. but my spirit had been opened to my entire future and God sized dreams and plans. i became Moses “you can’t use me God” “im not good enough” “im messed up” “i am NOT a leader” “i know nothing about your spirit” “im 100 years behind tons of other people in spiritual maturity” and so much more. Don’t get me wrong, it’s exciting, but it’s like we have gotten off the bus and reached the river and everything became very real.

God reached out His hand though to help me to continue to walk on water towards him, he gave me these verses:

Hebrews 10:35-36
“Do NOT throw away confident trust in the Lord. Remember the Great Reward it brings you! PATIENT ENDURANCE is what you need so you will continue to do God’s will. Then you’ll receive ALL that he has promised.” (emphasis added)

God became my guide. and i instantly found peace again.

White water rafting is a blast. I encourage you all to do it. It is not scary at all, as long as you listen to your guide. The Guide stays in your boat the whole time. He sits in back and does the toughest work, but lets you move the boat forward. going down the start of that river is so exhilarating, knowing the rapids are coming. ALL of your trust is in your guide, your life is in his hands. After my river rapiding experience i was like… is that it? i made way to big of a deal out of this.. it was too fun! let’s do it again! class five the whole time!

as im picking up speed down this river im getting excited. There are big plans and the are God’s, i have nothing to do with them. He just happened to pick me for this part of his story.

Little white lies are like smoking, you’re slowly destroying yourself, but hardly notice that you are hurting yourself… and those around you. You know there is the possibility of consequences, yet you still do it. In the end you bring yourself to your death bed… or you get treated to slowly try to fix things, but remember, things will never return to normal.

Life is the surface of an ocean: one drop starts ripples, there are waves and storms and sometimes hurricanes, but there is always a silver lining. If you want to stay afloat in the rough times you need a rock to cling to. It can be hard to keep your head above water and treding water can get tiring and at times you duck under. Carrying others on your own strength is impossible and people can easily take you down with them if you aren’t careful. The water can be murky but other times can be crystal clear. It can be full of life or dead and empty. Others can pollute it as much as it can tear others up.